This might be a tough post. I am going to try and articulate some very fundamental things. And, as I learn over and over again from these posts and my every interaction, and most recently from my posts the other day, I need to be careful about the words I use so as not to distress anyone. The thing is, somehow I manage to distress people when I feel like inside of my consciousness, I am about one of the most positive people I have ever come accross. 

I was thinking about it on my drive home yesterday–never in my life did I allow myself to be defeated–even in my darkest moments and I had many, believe me. I am a survivor, and the power of the mind, soul, and body is profound. Are those even separate things? Some of us pretend to, but, ultimately none of us know. 

I want to start by saying that I had a couple of emotional conversations today that reminded me of my physics and organic chemistry treacher in college. He knew what he was talking about, but, none of us did. In fact, he knew so much, I think he taught as if we all just knew most of what he knew too. Which, was kind of "cool" because it gave us a sense of respect and honor, but….we had no clude what on earth he was saying. So, it took 20 times longer to understand what we needed to get because of this assumption he would make.

Well, I obviosuly know a considerable amount of things about the condition of IC and chronic illness in general. And, perhaps I feel I have said something so many times, I am hesitant to repeat it so that I am not at risk of being tirelessly redundant. However, I realize that I am not itterating enough my favorite metaphor and the concept of my most important fundamental doctoral concept in my work.

So being sick is point A and being healthy is point Z–the road in between is windy (just recently realized there is no way to differentiate between windy as in, blowing in the, and windy, as in semi-circular turns). In order to stay on that windy road, we as practitioners, need to assist the person going through treatment in staying on that windy road by steering the wheel of their car along those turns. The way to do that is to make dose adjust ments to keep the car going. By doing that you are following the way the person is reactin and working with the body and condition of the illness–unraveling it so to speak. So, when we often are tireless subtracting and putting back the same ingredients, it is not because we are endlessly doing the same thing for no reason. It is for a reason. As a person goes forward, the reactions start to break down and the immune system begins to react differently as it is making progress. The body is in a contual state of motion and change, and what is often referred to as homestasis is actually not that, but homedynamic. Understanding this helps us to graps why you cannot just come up with some magical combination to create an effect tha will make everything disappear. The idea is change-so as there is change you go with those changes. IN health there is constant motion. In illness there is even more. The body swinging on way and then the the other.

This last statement is the idea of Compensation I speak of in my dissertation. So, if you do one thing really hard the body will swing back the other way, this is only one example. So, in order to stop this from happening, one must create smoother movments that are less extreme. As treatment continues, this is what starts to happen.

I wish this was an easy process for everyone, it isn't. I wish that there was an easy fix, there isn't. I wish this condition did not exist-truly, I wish it so much, but it does. With all of that said-life, health and illness-there IS change, and WITH change, we can CREATE more change.

The evolution of our health is part of the essence of our beings. Who knows why the ones who suffer with these things found themselves on this road. I realize for some of you i tis very difficult even unthinkable to turn any of this into a positive. But, I have to say, I think of the suffering I have personally been through in my life as just that because, I feel very certain it will change the old woman I am yet to become. I will be wiser and more youthful, healthier, happier. I think I will live to be much older and certainly, much more wise. And, through this, I may be able to touch more human beings on this planet than I ever could have under a different set of cicumstances.

Each one of us possesses such opportunities- because everyone you touch around you by being who you are and sharing what you know is changed by that. 

Dr.M