Someone asked me today, if in addition to the common thread that I have found in the lack of maternal nurturing and IC, if trust was also an issue that comes up in the condition. I asked what she meant. Trust for a specific person or persons or in general. Interestingly she replied an overall trust of everything and everyone including myself and my body. And, I thought, well, yes, I suppose that IS true. Generally I think the lost of trust in one’s own body is profound in a situation like IC. One cannot trust that her sexuality will work the way it is supposed to, that his or her digestion system will break down foods the way it is designed to do, that she will be able to sleep wthout getting up countless times per night, etc… IT is exhausting to think about all the things that cannot be counted on. However, as one starts to make the changes necessary to begin the journey down the road that restores health slowly you CAN start counting on things again. One by one the things you can count on far outnumber the ones that you cannot. I giggle sometimes when I hear the same comments over and over again from people when they are in treament. Somone will say that they will never be able to eat a particular food again and eventually they do eat it–no problem. OR they will say, if I get no better than this, I can live like this for the rest of my life, no problem, and then they go the rest of the way.
All of that said, I can correlated trust issues in this way. I am uncertain without much furthur pause if I can make a stronger correlation of trust that go as deep as the nurturing issue. Perhaps if we feel that we were not adequately nurtured by our mothers that is a fundamental trust that is not well establsihed from a young age. I am not sure those two things go hand in hand or not.
If any of you have comments on this, feel free to comment. I would love to hear your thoughts.